Burning Up

Starlight
will be here soon.
I want to live with the stars.
Far away
from this world.

Memories
they take me far away.
I want to separate myself
from this world.
Far away.
Rise above it.
Be one
with the light that brightens
the night sky
the dark sky.

Be one...
one that holds a message
piercing through to all of the
lovers of the night
bearers of disparities
hands of the alone.
Like me...
pain in beauty
beauty in pain.
Lady in the stars.
Woman of the dark.
Red lipstick piercing through
the heart of you.
The heart of the unknown.

Not their hearts,
but ours.
The ones that beat
to an unconventional sanity.
The ones that live and love
for the night.
The night that is lit by the
starlight.
I...
just want to hold it
in my arms.
The night that is lit by
starlight.




Conclusion

So I took a shower after our last email.
A very long shower. Way too hot.
I let the water drain and drain while I lay down
and I just let it pour on me
all over me
cleanse me.
Free me.
With my fingers dripping droplets
I traced a heart on my skin
with both hands
where my heart should be.
I stared at it and--
how quick the water bled away
in every direction.
I repeated this a few times
coming to the conclusion that
it is like my... heart.

I have one. It's there.
It just bleeds. I let it bleed.
I make it bleed.
I want it to bleed.
And I love it
bleeding.
It still beats.
And that's plenty for me.